I've come to realize who my true friends are. You know, I rather let friendship go then hold on to something I know will never be the same. It's sad to walk down the hallway at school and know you were once close to that particular person and now you're nothing but students who go to the same school. I know this sounds a little too cliche or clingy but it's true. I miss those times where I would hang out with friends every day and talk on the phone or get random phone calls just cause. I miss inside jokes and being the first to know things. I know good things don't last forever but damn, those good things impacted me in many ways. People lose some to win some. I might not have lost a friend that much but it feels like I have. It feels like I don't know him like I do. I know that at the same time frame that I have distant from that person I have gained more than what I lost. But at the same time it feels like all the things I've gained can't compare to what I have lost. I might not make sense right now but that's how I feel. It's disappointing to me but at the same time, I'm okay with it. My friends should know that I'm here no matter what, no matter how long we don't talk, I'm still here to talk, to listen, to help, to just be there. I'm trust worthy. I'm always here. Sometimes it just seems that I'm only a seasonal friend, and I'm not like that. I'm not a part time friend, I choose not to be. That's why I choose not to care as much as I used to. I don't want to worry about friends who don't worry about me. I'm fine, I really am. I guess I just miss many things, maybe a little too much.
